“It’s early in the morning and I have to wake up”, I said to myself. I don’t want to, I thought to myself. Then I remembered, “my life”, my reality was not what I expected it to be.
I have never been in this place before nor struggled with this before. Many could agree with me, about the subject of struggling with trusting God, or believing in God, or even doubting if God hears you. But what happens when you hear God say something, and then turn of events in your life, or rather, your daily reality, contradicts everything you heard? What do you do then? And every time you get close to the promise, your circumstances change for the “worst”.
Let me bring this home a little bit, my question is what do you do when you pray for your family to get saved, or to get healed, or for circumstances to change in your life. However, instead of that happening, your family gets worse, or the person you prayed for to get healed passes on. What do you do? This is the reason people stray away, lose hope and lose their ‘faith’.
Well this morning I am faced with a contradiction between my promise and my reality. So I had to make a choice to either wallow in my circumstance and hate life, or take action to move forward.
Here are 3 things that I am choosing to do to move forward from where I am at:
1. State the Obvious
I think the number one reason that we get so discouraged and disappointed in our walk with God is that we pretend too much. We pretend like the things we go through don’t affect us, and we pretend that we are okay. Well the truth is I am not okay with all this. But guess what? God can take my "not okay" talks with Him, and He is waiting for you to tell Him about your "not okay" moments. You are right, what’s happening to you is not fair, and God is a Big God He can take it. Yes He knows it all but state the obvious to Him anyway. Let Him know what’s happening and how you genuinely feel about it, I promise He won’t get offended. He wants to be part of the process, that is how we grow our relationship with Him. We have to let Him in our state of unmet expectation. The prayer that Jesus prayed in the Garden of Gethsemane was exactly that, stating the obvious. The Bible says, he was in anguish and He told God something God already knew. So I encourage you to state the obvious.
2. Let’s Not Get It Twisted
Just because I can’t see How God is going to do something, does not mean that I don’t believe He can. I have had to be very clear to myself in my pain, this doesn't look good, yes, I get that that’s my current reality, but it is not my destiny. The map is never the destination. So I am not going to take what’s happening right now and let it rewrite my whole life, NO! I refuse to do that. Which is why, in these times I pray, I pray and I pray. It might not look like it but I know and I know that God can and He will. In times like these I continually pray over my mind and I have to focus on God. My prayer goes something like this:
“What shall we say about such wonderful things as these? If God is for us, who can ever be against us? Since he did not spare even his own Son but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else? Who dares accuse us whom God has chosen for his own? No one—for God himself has given us right standing with himself. Who then will condemn us? No one—for Christ Jesus died for us and was raised to life for us, and he is sitting in the place of honor at God’s right hand, pleading for us.
Can anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? (As the Scriptures say, “For your sake we are killed every day; we are being slaughtered like sheep.”) No, despite all these things, overwhelming victory is ours through Christ, who loved us.
38 And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:31-39
3. Keep The Intimacy
The enemy is after your intimacy with God. We have a responsibility to protect that and guard it. For me, it doesn’t matter what I am going through but I never let it affect my intimacy with my God, because God has been good to me and I do that by:
a) Seeking God continually
I literally force myself to worship because I know God and I know that He makes all things work together for good. Things might not “look” like what I imagined but they are becoming what God intended. I know that God has great plans for my life. I pray daily, and I read His word daily.
b) I allow the Holy Spirit full access to my life.
I do this so that he can give me Godly perspective to what I see, and peace. I allow him to take control of how I process everything. I never want to give the enemy room to deceive and distort my image of God, I know what the Lord has done for me. I might be going through this right now, but it doesn’t change who God is. So when I cannot see it, I ask His Holy Spirit to show me.
c) I let God be God
God is God, and He knows what He is doing. In my logical perspective, my family is getting “worse” but I have no idea what God is doing in their hearts and how He is going to use what they are doing now for His glory. God doesn't go with logic anyway!
God will never let you down. Trust Him now more than ever before! He is about to blow your mind. Trust His promises.
Zintle is a graduate of the Chicago Masters Commission, and is currently an Intern for Radiant Women Ministries under P. Elizabeth. Zintle is a Life Coach, certified through Lets live Coaching institute and is affiliated with the Coaches and Mentors of South Africa (COMENSA), as well as the Federation for Nuero Linguistic Programming Coaching professionals (NLPCP). She also is a published author of a woman empowerment book "On Stiletto's".